I don't remember the exact date of my “blogiversary”, but I do believe I have just passed two huge (for me!) milestones. Wait for it… wait for it…
I have now been blogging for over two years AND I have posted over 500 posts.
I suppose that isn’t a big deal to most folks, especially since there are many more accomplished and talented mommy bloggers on the humongously big world wide web, but for me… Wow! Go me!
When I started, I hadn’t written anything in years. I was so tired and busy with all those not-so-lucrative-but-soul-consuming parenting duties of newborn babies. I had read a lot of memoir-ish stuff by writers about my age, writers who, while humorous and amusing and talented and intelligent, were simply relating stories from their everyday journey – my everyday journey.
It was the sort of writing that some people, mainly really out-there feminists, always wring their hands over: “Oh no, young mommies are writing about themselves! How dare they!” As a former militant feminist, it took a lot of soul searching and attitude adjustment for me to admit that I actually wanted TO BE a mommy blogger. Despite my best intentions to not "ONLY" be a mom or housewife that is exactly what I was seeking. It took me years to come to grips with the fact that I no longer desired a high-powered, prestigious career.
I want, more than anything, to be the very best mommy possible and be with my children as much as possible.
For the wee ones are only young once, and for such a very brief time… There may be moments, or entire days, that seem to last an eternity – times when I don’t think I will survive this toddler phase or that preschooler phase. However, the old cliché “this too shall pass” is so very true.
So, instead of finding it discouraging that I was not the “successful, accomplished” adult woman I thought I wanted to grow up to be, I had morphed into something new. And I was inspired. Really, truly inspired. I conciously made the decision to be a mommy and still hold on to my feminist notions and afterall, I could be a mommy blogger too. I had all these hilarious coming-of-age “nothing happens” kind of stories floating around in my old journals, or happening in my daily life. I thought, perhaps, I could just share them and maybe people would actually read and enjoy them, just as I was reading and enjoying other women’s stories.
So, here we are! Over two years and 500+ posts later. It’s not what award winning stuff is made of, but I’ll take it.
After all those years of struggling with it, I’ve found an inner peace and a medium that works for me and I’m simply enjoying writing again. I’ve loved having this little virtual open mic to share my thoughts. Thank you so much for reading!